Apr. 25th, 2005
12:06 pm - Järgmised nädalad on nutused
Niisiis saigi sellesse faasi mida kohe yldse ei taha. Köigil on tuju kurb- sest on ju aprilli köpp. Rahvas hakkab lahkuma....nii palju goodbye'si. See on veider...alguses sai loodetud et seda ei juthu ja olin kindel et ei juhtu. nuh see ju teada et lahkume köik- oleme ettevalmistunud, nii e tmiks nutta. Aga siiski- kurb on olla.
Möelda vaid algsete plaanide järgi oleksin pidanud 1 mai ajal lahkuma. Krt miks ma nii ei tee...aga ma ei suuda. Ma ei taha...tahan jonnida. Tahan et jääksima kokku vöi lahkuksime ilma lahkumiseta. ja teadmisega et homme näeme jälle.
Käisin eestis ja köik oli super...tagasi tulek (nagu alati) tunne et tulen koju Borlängesse, aga seekord oli asi erinev. Ma teadsin et me hakkame köik ära minema. Mina nt kolin paariks nädalaks söbranna juurde, ja kurb on. Lhtsalt kurb.
Aga pea pysti ja saan hakkama...see on ju elu ja alati on olemas MSN ja telefonid :)
Apr. 19th, 2005
So i tried the traditional special Swedish Fish. We had a BBQ and Johannes thought that all the exchange students have to try, it was fun. Luckasz opened it and then the smell came and came....and never went away. So I though o: ok swedish are eating it, so the smell should be much worse than the taste. Thank god I was eating it with potatoes and onion- I still could eat half of the sandwich. Oh YOU have to try it- it's terrible. But it's the thing what people who visit Sweden HAVE TO taste. Then a mistake was drinking beer- because it make me "burp" a bit...and then all the evening (and I still do) felt the smell in my mouth....although I washed already my teeth. Terrible, but an experience i will never forget!
Nice nice nice...now have to print one article and get to home to sleep- hopefully today i will fall asleep...tomorrow have to wake up early and go to estonia....where I probably can't sleep ..maybe some hours...hmmmmm
Puss och Kram
So.. yesterday went to sleep like 2 a.m. ...nice...woke up already 9:45. Nice. But at least I got into better mood....before sleeping although I was a bit weird. But that's life. Yep I so much wanted to sleep school but many people ordered me to go home. And TJ said that if he sees me riding my bike at night...he will pull me off from there. Scary ;)
Today started shit...didn't have any breakfast, forgot my mobile at home, and computer was slow. Now Im ok already... damnnnn Im moody :). but it goes away, just too much to think about- like where to take my friends in estonia....some say one place is good, some other...but some places cost much more than others also.
At least in here its not snowing- and its normal warmness...as I heard in EST its snowing...blablablaaa....
Apr. 18th, 2005
11:40 pm - Sleepless night- in some way...
WOndering if sleeping in school would be a good idea. I really don't want to go home- I hate this feeling. I have head full of thoughts- stupid ones...and I hate myself at the moment a bit because of that. Music and bike riding does good for me....but i can't do it all night.
Just wanna hit something at the moment..or cry but it feels stupid also...and there are people around me in this computer lab.
But for tomorrow it all will be fine...I know it. Its just the evening time...without sleeping- that's the problem. And maybe a film " The Girl Next Door" or.... Ah who cares.....I ill have fun soon...going to Estonia!
Niiisiiis kokku tuli 10 SMSi (with 1. day), teemad erinevad :) ....aga kas saan ka köne- see on kahtlane kuid samas mitte..... metsa!
Apr. 17th, 2005
04:09 pm - Only smiling....can't help it
Yes yesterday was nce...evening almost good. Fallowed my friend advice and sent the DJ an sms..he was still in Gran Canaria...but in the night got a message that he is in stockholm now....and today another 6 messages from hom...talking wierd thing, think he is drunk but he didn't answere to that question. But I will ask it again...tomorrow ;P.
Yesss we got in to Bolanche also....wow super. And it was super. Had fun...and sayd again no...almost would have sayd yes...but I was strong and thought other things. And the DJs there didn't have a song "500miles"...it's a good one- they should have it!
Today had a long nice walk with Naomi- talking of everything. Then we ate a KEBAB..super, I so needed that...and it was right time also.
I hope my smile never ends...I now that at least at the end of april there isn't a smile at least one day...but anyway can't be happy everyday :)
Apr. 16th, 2005
Sry the gift is from Prague. So its a dog with what you can play (special one) called Prakk :)
12:36 pm - Im so HAPPY
Its the best morning wever. Firstly yesterday my nose started to itch so I sent my friend Ulvi (who is pregneat) a sms. Saying: hej my nose is itching so tell me if you have had your baby - anytime :). Hugs. In the morning got a message back: Yesterday eveining there was a little girl born :). Im just SO SO Happy!!!
Its the second time that something like this has happend...nose itches and baby is born and I knew it like a second. HAPPY ME.
Abd then yesterday came back Tully from a big round-trip. Poland, Austria and so on...(I even don't know the places). And he got me an gift from Krakow. Im SO HAPPY again.
So hope that this day goes on like this. Its sunny and nice. I will go tonight to Swedish Lisa's birthday dinner and then hope to get in Bolanche- it would be wonderful.
There is only one problem. My leg hurts a bit so dancing is a bit hard- but hope for the best. Just some hours to repair it!
Hugs and kisses....
Apr. 15th, 2005
So now I already wanted to call Thomas as johan...hmm metsas need nimed. But anyway it was fun yesterday. Although the so called club was very empty but there was a special DJ and the music was good...especially lights stuff.
Oh and Floren was very bad today. Said to me that he is leaving for good from Sweden tomorrow....and then said that he isn't... so it was like a joke...a bad one.
And today...im not sure if we have any parties, hopefully have otherwise I will die.
Tomorrow , I hope we got in the list; I go to Bolanche,....nice. And then I will wear my hat....then its supeeeer.
Anyway had a short seminar today but its good. Next week same time Im already in estonia....
Apr. 11th, 2005
Niisiis fingers crossed...double.
Jep esimene reason: tahan tulla eestisse koos oma rootslaste ja internationalidega. See saaks lahe olema aga ehk homme saan teada kas saan tulla. Kui nad mult mingit suuremat summat kysivad, siis peanei ytlema...kahju ja kurb siis ju. Ma tahan ju minna kuigi raha napib aga ikka tahan minna.
Teine reason : saatsin Bolanche'i omanikule meili et ta meid listi jälle paneks. Nujah me oleme 21 aastased, sissepääasuks pead olema 22. Jama eks...aga enamus läeb sinna ju ja seal on huvitavam ja pönevam. Oh loodan et asi läeb läbi. Nii loodan. Muidu läen hulluks ja segaseks. Mnjah ja nyyd on mul energiat yle. Käisin jympas ja siis rattaga söitmas...issand kui lahe. Ma pole seda köike nii amuu teinud. Vahva tunne on....ahjaa ja nyyd on köht ka tyhi aga suva...mönus on juuu. Vähamelt mingis suhtes tunnen röömu ja önne.